Bleh... I feel sick :(

It started not long after lunch so maybe it was that... but it's lingered all afternoon - so naturally I came home and ate a packet of crisps - cause THAT will help no end!!! I do wonder at my logic sometimes!!

My head's all a bit screwy at the moment, what with one thing and another... but surprisingly overall I feel pretty mellow... it wont last I'm sure... but it's nice for now...

Now if only the sickly would go away....

Anyone got some chocolate ;)

Douglas Adams said that the answer to life, the universe and everything is 42... the only problem was that no one ever knew what the actual answer was...

I had one of those times last night (or rather early this morning) lying in bed and reflecting on life - or more specifially MY life... it's never really a good thing to do late at night, especially when you're already feeling down... Why can I remember so many things in my life that hurt me... but so few that made me happy?

( The moments may have ended but the memories last forever... )

I re-coloured my hair yesterday cause the roots were showing... my intention was to just re-blonde it like I normally do...

Only I got a new brand of dye - cause it was on offer - and the shade has turned out darker than I normally go... I wasnt sure at first - but I think I rather like it now - it looks more "natural" than the really blonde blonde that I sometimes go for...

Friday night might be off now cause Angie isnt feeling too good... I dont really mind too much either way!!

*pouts and stamps feet*

Gah I get home from work to find I've only been called for Jury Service on 5th January... not a happy bunny! That should have been the first day back at work after Christmas - bet they'll be amused too!! ;)

It's REALLY not something I fancy doing... ahh well - not like I have a choice...

AND it mean's I'll have to get up early to catch a train to Liverpool every morning... God I hope it doesnt go on for long!!!

I feel weird tonight... restless or something... I dont know... I've spent the last hour wandering aimlessly around t'internet and cant really settle on anything to do... I'd love to write some more Karma cause the next section is just about mapped in my head but I know I wouldnt be able to concentrate in this mood!!

I started my christmas shopping today - so result for me! OK so I bought three things... and yes maybe they WERE three of the same thing... but hey - it's a start!!

I've actually got to the stage in life where I rather dislike christmas shopping... it's not that I dont like to get people gifts - cause that's a nice thing to be able to do... I think it's the whole not knowing what to get people and being faced with tonnes of pointless junk year after year trying to disguise itself as something worth buying... I dont suppose it helps that I'm not really a big fan of christmas either!!!

Night out next Friday so hopefully that'll be good... seems like AGES since we last went out - and it's the charity fundraiser again early next month - looking forward to that one too...

Now I just need to work out what to do with the rest of my night... any ideas??

Grrrr... well it's a long time since the tosser has made me really want to punch him... but when it happens!!!!

Apparently me finishing early on a friday isnt a good idea cause of the one time every 6 months that the tit needs me to do something... forgetting all the time we sit staring into space just praying for 5pm...

Ahh well I might just have to hold off buying that diamond ring LOL!!!

Today at work we were asked if anyone would volunteer to have their hours reduced on a temporary basis while things are so quiet... so I lept at the chance!!

As of Monday I'll be starting half an hour later every day (yey lie in), take a longer lunch break AND finish half day on a Friday!!! (Hell when/if things pick up I might try to hold on to that Friday bit!!)

I suppose I'll miss the drop in money to some extent - although my living expenses are so minimal that I dont think I'll be too worried...

And we're planning a night out next Friday so I wont have to be rushing to get ready like I always used to :)

Although the fact that anyone needs to reduce their hours isnt a good thing it's still better than anyone being laid off as of yet - and we always have a quiet patch from now till about February so we'll just have to see how it goes...

I can't believe how tired I am - I got a full nights sleep with no interruptions and yet I've felt totally exhausted ALL day... as if I didnt sleep at all... gah!

Bleh!! I feels ill!!

Over the last couple of days I've gone through the sore throat and achey bones stuff and today when I FINALLY managed to haul myself out of bed (and it wasnt till 11.30 - shame on me) I got really dizzy and queazy... this is not a good thing... I feel rather light-headed now!

It makes me think of that time I passed out on my keyboard - god that must be a couple of years back now... and I'll still got a scar on the bridge of my nose to prove it - for anyone who ever gets close enough to look - which would be no one these days!!!!

We had planned to go out on Friday - I am SO glad we changed it to a couple of weeks time - I wouldnt have had the energy!!

Friendship is...

(A few random quotes that made me smile and made me think of some people that make me smile ♥)


Because of you... I laugh a little harder, cry a little less, and smile a little more.

Sometimes, someone says something really small and it just fits right into this empty place in your heart.

A friend is someone that knows everything about you and loves you anyway.

A friend is one who can see the truth and pain in you when you're fooling everyone else.

The people who really care won't hurt you, but if they do, you'll see it in their eyes, for they'll be hurting too.

Friends find the beautiful things in us when no one else looks hard enough to find.

Even if we never talk again after tonight, please know that I am forever changed because of who you are and what you've meant to me.

LMAO what the start to the morning... got into the living room to find my mother sat - looking rather pitiful - on the floor!! She'd tripped up and couldnt get back up, she doesnt have the strength since her stroke...

Anyways I managed (somehow!) to lift her to her feet and she wasnt hurt so that was good... not what you need when you're barely awake though!!!

It's Tuesday... it's cold and I want to go back to my bed!!!

I dont know the score anymore
It's not clear anymore
I can't tell right from wrong anymore
I just dont understand

So if the weekend has had an extra hour why do I still feel knackered??? And more importantly why the hell has it gone by so damn fast??

I watched the first episode of that Britannia High online yesterday... VERY high school musical - but I suppose that's the point...

I was gonna do this whole thing about how I'm feeling but quite frankly I can no longer be arsed... not that there's any point... I've said it all before a million times and nothing ever changes...

It's strange how some songs just seem to "talk" to you and you dont really know why... Fish has always been such an incredible song writer - I would actually say he's my FAVOURITE song writer - and that includes the amazing Lennon/McCartney!!!

Every song of his seems to get to my emotions and this one... that is currently being used in one of my McDean fics... is top of the list for that these days... to me it describes confusions and contradictions of life... and dont we all feel that at times??

( Vigil... )

Some days everything just ends up feeling a bit meh!!!

My eye hurts!! This isnt particularly relevant to ANYTHING except for the fact that it's true!! I got shampoo in it earlier and it's still stinging!!

Why is it almost Monday again?? I swear the weekends get shorter every week - although isnt it next weekend that we put the clocks back and get an extra hour... yeyness!!!

I realised I forgot to do the back-up at work on Friday - I hope the 'puters havent died over the weekend LOL!!!

This seems to be one of those "no real reason for posting" type posts... so I think I'll just stop and go away !!

I very nearly bought This today... but then I didnt... doesnt help that I have such fat fingers :(

I noticed something weird on my LJ yesterday - one of my icons had been changed to a flashing one that just said "penis" - how witty!!! Bit worried about HOW that was done though... hmmm

*yawn... stretch*

Another night out in Liverpool has been and gone... and gone pretty quickly too I have to say! But it was a fab one all the same... poor Tina couldnt make it cause she's poorly so it was just me and Charlie...

The Cavern was absolutely heaving... seriously do these people not have to work Friday morning!!! We spent most of the night with the lovely Tony (drummer from The Shakers) which was unusual cause he normally just stops for a chat and then wanders off again!!! And bless him but he even gave us a lift back to our hotel at the end of the night - which was good cause it was raining by then!!!

So anyways I've discovered I'm no good at being chatted up!!! Seriously - there we were in the Cavern and this bloke sorta taps my shoulder and as I turned to look he kinda pushes his mate in front of me (bless!!) and after a few seconds this second guy starts talking to me - nothing much just something about the band but it actually made me feel really uncomfortable just talking to this bloke so in the end I pretty much just blanked him... yes I think I am nowadays destined to remain single if I cant even hold a conversation with someone I dont know *rolleyes*

Today I actually looked at some diamond rings.. to the extent where I even had a couple on my fingers... ohhh they were pretty... and shiny... if they'd had one of them in my size I probably would have bought it there and then!!!

So anyways... remember when I said this yesterday "So yes, it's been a good day... is it bad that a little part of me is waiting for something bad to happen to cancel it all out?"

Tempting fate much??

Today has been a pretty good day so far - rubbish weather aside - I did the shopping thing and treated myself to nice things that I didnt know I needed!! ;)

First I got new boots! Now this is a MAJOR achievement for me cause I really struggle when it comes to boots - especially ankle boots which these are... My first problem usually arrives when the boots I like the look of turn out to be leather - that's a big NO right there - and then if by chance I find non-leather boots that I like they usually refuse to fit over my ankles (I hate my ankles :( they are too fat!!) But today I did find lovely non-leather boots that fit perfectly... so the purchase was made!!!!

Then - I had gift vouchers to spend (yipee) so I bought a bottle of perfume cause mine is nearly all gone and the woman serving me gave me a free dressing gown - it wasnt even anything to do with the perfume I was buying I think she just wanted to get rid of them!! AND I also bought a pair of seriously cute monkey slippers!!! LMAO!

As if that wasnt enough - I saw these cardigans last week (and the week before) that I quite liked but couldnt decide if I should buy them... today they were HALF PRICE!! So I got 2 in different colours...

And to finally round off the shopping experience I decided to get some new hair straighteners and I had enough points on my loyalty card to get them for free!!

Happy Days!

And also the very cute guy who sold me my lottery tickets wished me good luck - so that made me smile too!

So yes, it's been a good day... is it bad that a little part of me is waiting for something bad to happen to cancel it all out?

I have had a niggle of a bad head all day - woke up with it - and it doesnt seem to want to leave yet... I had a bit of a weird dizzy spell in work yesterday when my vision went a bit blurry and I had sort of flashing lights in the corner of my eyes - people mentioned they could by symptoms of a migraine but nothing came of it...

What a horrible horrible morning today was... Talk about raining - it was bucketing down - seriously heavy... so... guess what day this week was the ONLY day I've had to walk to work... yep you got it!!

I was so cold and wet by the time I got there - the bottom of my jeans were sodden - I had to lean against the radiator for a while to dry out!!!

You may have noticed a lack of bitching about my job recently... mainly cause right now I'm not actually hating it!!! *shock* the tosser is being less of a tosser these days - my actual role in the office has changed quite dramatically - and yeah, it's all pretty OK!!!

Next week is one of those lovely short weeks - no work for Dawney Thursday or Friday - we're off to Liverpool - for a change... Thursday would have been John Lennons birthday... it's amazing to realise how long he's been gone now :(