I've just finished reading THIS BOOK. While it took me a few chapters to really get into it overall it just blew me away. I dont know how many times it just hit a nerve with the "that's just how I feel/think" reaction... The characters feel so real and do move you to feel their anger, frustrations, hurt and even joy

A landmark in feminist literature, THE WOMEN'S ROOM is a biting social commentary of a world gone silently haywire. Written in the 1970s but with profound resonance today, this is a modern allegory that offers piercing insight into the social norms accepted blindly and revered so completely. 'Today's desperate housewives" eat your heart out! This is the original and still the best, a page-turner that makes you think. Essential reading' Kate Mosse 'They said this book would change lives - and it certainly changed mine' Jenni Murray 'Reading THE WOMEN'S ROOM was an intense and wonderful experience. It is in my DNA' Kirsty Wark 'THE WOMEN'S ROOM took the lid off a seething mass of women's frustrations, resentments and furies; it was about the need to change things from top to bottom; it was a declaration of independence' OBSERVER

I keep trying to say something clever here but cant quite find the words - but I would certainly recommend it anyways :)

Ahhh and then sometimes you can have a good day!!

First part of the day pretty ordinary... tosser came in to work early - worst luck... but then went into a meeting for about 2 hours SCORE!!

So anyways there I was - on the phone to some supplier or something - only me and Katy in the office - and there's a knock at the little receptiony hatch thingy that we have near the door - so Katy goes to answer it and I hear my name and then she says something like "Oh how lovely..."

So there I am - still on the phone - and desperate to know what she's talking about... and then she is passed this beautiful bouquet of flowers through the hatch and brings them to my desk ♥

I think you can probably imagine just how fast I wanted to get off the phone and look at them - and the card ♥

So the rest of the day was spent looking at my most beautiful flowers... and smiling... and still doing that now cause of course they came home with me and are sitting on my desk.... and they smell really gorgeous...

So yes... I would say today has been a good day...

Thank you Andy... I really cannot say enough just how beautiful they are ♥

Last week I thought I was coming down with a cold (which would be typical as I'm off work this Thursday/Friday so it would be just my luck to be ill for that)... so on Saturday - even though I wasnt feeling too bad - I stocked up on all the cold relief stuff - only to feel perfectly fine again by Sunday!!

Today comes along and now I once again have the sort throat and snuffly nose and feel a general bleh... so what is causing this intermittent "illness"... well I wonder - could it be something to do with the fact that we're sitting in an office that is being decorated!! Oh yes - they are literally painting the place as we sit there!!! God forbid it should be dont weekends or nights when no one is in... much better to inconvenience us all!!

So glad I only have two days of work left this week!! Stupid place *rolleyes*

I am SO bloody bored!!

I had a really dreadful nights sleep which has now given me a lovely banging headache!

So yey the joy of sitting in the office staring at the walls... just what I need!!!

This place is so bloody stupid - they would rather have me sat here doing NOTHING all day than let me go home early cause I've been paid for the day - thank fuck I only have to do one day this year!!!! But I am getting more and more pissed off as the minutes pass...

LOL I guess I must be getting really boring lately - people seem to be unfriending me in their droves... cant say I blame them really :)

Yesterday for the first time in - well at least 10 years - probably more - I came home from work poorly! I'd been sat in the office for two hours feeling worse and worse and finally couldnt take it any longer... Came home and went back to bed for the rest of the day - getting up again some time after five!!

I still feel pretty rough but I am hoping that yesterday was the worst of it!!

Had to do the shopping thing today and just to make life that bit better it was pouring down - at least it was till I got good and soaked and THEN the sun came out and I got overheated!! And now it's pouring again... this country really has some screwed up weather!

Ohhh I have only got one more week of work till Beatleweek - this is SO good... really looking forward to two weeks off - I need it big time...

So now I just need to stop with the coughing and life will be OK!!

I'm a bit drunk... and it's the middle of the week - that is either very good or very bad... I'm not sure which!!

Life is weird though... that is my big insight for the day I think...

I talk rubbish when drunked - this is also true!!!!

Sigh....

I wonder what REALLY happy feels like???

Time to shut up I think...

Sorry for the waffle...

Today has very much been a day of two halves... the work half - which as per the norm these days was a nightmare!! It's way too busy and there arent enough people to cope... blah to it all!

But after work was the girly pampering half which was MUCH more fun... me and Angie went to get our nails done... and I now have pretty pink glittery tipped nails that are oohhh so lovely :) Plus some rather long eyelashes - which I am convinced will be stuck to my cheeks by morning despite the fact that they're supposed to last a couple of weeks... we shall see!!

So yeah - that was good and fun... there should be more of that and less of the first half!!!

Well that was a pretty decent weekend all in all... the only drawback being that it was over too fast!!!

We had a fab night out on Friday - LOTS of cocktails and scrummy tapas... and then lots and lots of dancing... got home about 2.30 feeling rather achey with sore feet - seriously HOW does anyone do that sort of thing in HEELS?? Flat shoes all the way for me I'm afraid :)

Saturday was shopping day - as per usual - where I got some new tops YEY for sales... and some pump/shoe things for Beatleweek and then there I was in the supermarket with my trolley and MP3 player going - in the usual little world of my own when I heard someone saying something about healthy eating - I'd just put satsumas in my trolley - and I looked up to see my ex standing there!

It was SUCH a surprise to see him (this is my most "recent" ex... and by recent well we broke up before I even turned 30 but still) and I dont think I've seen him in at least 5 years... we ended up standing there for at least half an hour - probably longer actually - just talking at it was really nice... especially when he told me I was looking really good and had lost a lot of weight since we last met - who doesnt want to hear that sort of thing (although a little voice in the back of my head DID insist on saying "just how fat was I" - but let's ignore that) But yeah it was really lovely to see him and see how he's doing... and we had a bit of a hug and kiss when we said goodbye...

And then today was the lovely lazy day - even though I did get more writing done which I always like to do when I can...

Ahhhh why does it almost have to be monday though???

Next Saturday I'll be in liverpool for the day for a "George Harrison Day" concert - just for the afternoon though - home again for the night... and then before we know it BEATLEWEEK :)

Ahh well time for bed me thinks...

I havent posted on here much recently really - well not anything that isnt fic/fandom related anyways... I dont know if that's cause I havent had much to say or cause I cant be bothered saying the same old things...

Spent most of the day feeling pretty rubbish - to the extent of being asked if I was alright... which is nice, it's nice to know someone cares enough to ask... but it also REALLY makes me want to cry - which is not so good in the middle of the office. Thankfully I just managed to do the shrugging it off thing...

I used to be able to hide all this a lot better... people in RL arent supposed to notice all this stuff - cause then they might see just how broken I am most of the time

Ah well whatever... I've run out of words now... Heard this song earlier and it struck a chord...




I want you to know what's going on
In my mind
I thought I was immortal a little while ago
I thought that I was right but now I know
I'm wrong about everything

Yesterday was a bit of a mixed bag of a day... mostly good though so that's - well good!!!

I had plans to go to the theatre with Charlie to see the lovely Tony (from the Shakers) in a play and as such had requested that I changed my early finish from the usual Friday to Wednesday so me and Charlie could have a bit more time... but the tosser - being a total tosser and other less nice things - point blank refused saying I was NEEDED by him to do stuff - which was OK fair enough.... but THEN the bastard didnt even come in himself - seriously annoyed at that I have to say!!

Still it wasnt a total loss cause I did get out by 3.30 and so was changed and ready to meet Charlie for pizza at 5.00!!

After pizza I showed Charlie a bit of my home town - we went for a walk by the lake - it was quite bright so that was nice...

The play (Seperate Tables) was AMAZING!!! It's always a slight concern when you got to see someone you know doing something like that in case they're rubbish - but Tony was SO good!!! He's a brilliant actor - but I dont want to ever have him angry at me cause he was quite scary when he shouted!!

After the play we went to the theatre bar for a drink and Tony came and joined us - which was lovely... so we had a chat for about half an hour and then it was time for home and bed!!

So yeah a pretty good night all in all!!!

I feel completely rubbish now... my nose is SO sore with the needing to blow it all the time... I hate feeling poorly... still at least the tosser is away for the week now!!!

Bleh I feel rough... I'm either getting a cold AGAIN or I've developed hayfever... lots of sneezing all day and a snuffy nose... and even itchy eyes... doesnt sound good does it???

But on the bright side it was a nice sunny shopping day and I bought some new sandals that were price marked at £20 but for some reason were only £16 at the till??? Who's gonna argue that???

Right now it's a bit warm and stuffy and it's making me feel sleepuy... but it's too early to go to bed on a saturday... there is that mentality that saturday's should be late nights!!!

Being back in work after a long weekend is NOT a good thing... stupid having to work for a living!!!

Still I suppose the day could have been worse - the tosser had a strop over something that I "hadnt done"... despite the fact that I told him he never actually gave the stuff to me! But ohhhh yes he insisted that he did - right up to the point where he remembered giving to to Gill to check over first!! Sure I'll be getting my apology any day now!! But he's off on holiday all next week so RESULT there :)

Ohhh and my silly mobile has been a nightmare over the last few months - losing its signal and sometimes texts not coming through for ages... turns out it's not just me having the problem though cause they're taking down the large gas tower in town and that had one of the Orange mobile arial/masts/whatever they're calleds... so no wonder reception isnt as good... hope it's gonna get replaced though

Anyways that was all....

I was gonna post but it all just seems so blah... I dont even really know what I thought I was going to say... so yeah, that was worthwhile...

When did it all get to be so complicated anyways???

Oh and night out/Liverpool - yeah pretty good...

Work tomorrow... not so good...

End of pointless post!

Today I go to Liverpool this is good...
We're supposed to be meeting people at a bar that neither me nor Charlie knows where it is... not so good but hey ho!!!
It means no work tomorrow - EXTRA good!!!

Now if someone could just dress me and finish packing my overnight case... no?? Oh well!!!

Ahh what a night - totally knackered now... but it was SO worth it!

It's been a long time since we had such a fun night out - well it's the first non-Liverpool night out we've done this year but we certainly made up for it :)

I am now the proud owner of a bow tie if anyone needs one... it's previous owner kindly dontated it to me... and by donated I mean I took it off him and wore it till the end of the night where I said I didnt want to give it back so he let me keep it!!!

Many cocktails were drunk at the beginning of the night - running up an alcohol bill of £60 for three of us in about three hours... and I'm sure at least one of the drinks werent added to the bill!!

Angie had a "surprise" for us... which turned out to be a little bag of fake stick on mustaches and beards and sideburns which we happily put on to our own great amusement... we even got the main barman guy who'd been serving us to try them on - he was a real good sport and a laugh :)

Over at the club and there was a bit more drinking and some dancing - I wouldnt recommend getting WKD in your eye though - it does rather sting :)

And then there was some snogging to be had with this nice bloke, whose name remains unknown... but we had a dance and a snog and that was fun - he was out it a group with the bow-tie blokes...

Ohhh nearly forgot... got the bloke I was snogging to give his mates a kiss too! Men are funny :)

Oh yes - and silly Dawney went out without her keys!!! So I had to phone my mum and warn her that I'd have to wake her up when I got home... but she left the door open for me instead!!

So yeah - all in all a cracking good night...

So the big room clear out is well under way now!! One bookcase has been dismantled... about 30 books are waiting to be taken to a charity shop and one chest of drawers is empty and ready to be chucked out!!!

How is it possible to collect so much junk over the years though?? I even had two huge storage boxes full of old newspapers that are now waiting to be put out with the recycling!!!

So I think I'm just about ready to order the new desk :) I've decided on the larger square one of the two cause although the other one did look good I think the bigger one suits my needs - and my room - better!!

Ohhhh and I should be off out on Friday night - barring any last minute disasters!!!

Bathed the dogs today - they didnt like it... Jack still isnt talking to me now!! Most funny!!

Gah why does it have to be work again tomorrow though????

Hmmm I dont know which desk I like better... This one... or This one

*ponders*

I've just had an email to tell us that my mum's twin sister (anyone who's been around for a little while will remember the tale of the long lost twin) has had a heart-attack and is now waiting for a by-pass...

This is strange news in that I dont really feel that much for her, cause in truth we barely know the woman, and while I hope she's OK it's not like I'm going to be majorly worried or anything (hope that doesnt sound heartless)

But what it does do is remind me of mum's poor health... while she usually "seems" ok someone who's had a heartattack, by-pass, stroke, diabetes... well she's not in peak condition is she??

I think it's been on my mind a lot over the last few years - but more so recently - what I'll do when she's gone... kind of scares me... but then life pretty much scares me too... why did it not turn out like it was supposed to - when you're a kid it feels like being a "grown up" will give you all the answers and all it does really is pose even harder questions...