dawneh
12 April 2009 @ 04:18 pm
 
The mission: Sort out the bedroom, throw out all that old junk I've been hoarding but dont really need, make the place nice and organised with the inclusion of a new computer desk... potentially This One

Success rate so far: One bin bag FULL of stuff I dont really need PLUS the paper recycle bag filled with old magazines...

Well it's a start...

I got a bit nostalgic going through years of old birthday cards... in the bin they went - felt a bit bad about that but WHY keep them really?? Awww but I found an old valentines and a letter from my first serious boyfriend... that was a trip down memory lane... couldnt quite throw that away!!!
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I'm feeling:: optimistic
 
 
dawneh
20 March 2009 @ 03:53 pm
 
Home now.. and tired... so tired... did I mention the tired??? I ache from head to toe and seem to have developed a cough... but it was a really fab night so that was good!!

Some freaky guy tried chatting me up at one point - I think he was foreign cause I couldnt understand half of what he said... but when he kept on leaning his head on my shoulder and stroking my back it got a bit much... a bit of flirting or whatever is fun but that was far too intimate for a complete stranger... still we shook him off in the end!!!

But yeah apart from that it was a fab night - the band were on good form - and lovely to us as usual... and a lovely bloke who we've seen around a lot of beatle things and have spoken to briefly before spent a long time talking to us - he even bought us a drink - although I did refuse the first time he asked... and we did buy him one back later!!!

I could sleep for a week now... that god I didnt have to go into work this afternoon, I would have been useless...
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I'm feeling:: exhausted
 
 
dawneh
19 March 2009 @ 10:35 am
 
So here we are... Thursday... 10.35am... and I am still at home - just out of the shower... Yes I did manage to get my days off :) Angie was well enough to go into work so I didnt have to *happy dance*

So all my drama of the other day was for nothing... still that doesnt matter now :)

On an entirely unrelated note why am I not getting my email notifications from LJ anymore??? I've not had any for months now.... It really annoys me cause I dont know if I'm missing replying to anyone... oh well what can I do??

Suppose I need to think about getting dressed and ready to get off to Liverpool...
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I'm feeling:: curious
 
 
dawneh
17 March 2009 @ 01:43 pm
 
So anyway... yesterday's emo post is now over!! I will be getting my night out one way or another... Angie's a bit better so could well be in but if not I've arrange to just work Thursday morning and Friday afternoon so i still get my night out!

Now if someone could just kill the tosser life would be complete!! Oh well you cant have everything :)
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I'm feeling:: busy
 
 
dawneh
16 March 2009 @ 05:20 pm
 
Welcome to monday - dontcha just love it - well actually no!!

This week should (or possibly should have) been a good week - being that I've booked Thursday and Friday off for a yey-ness night out in liverpool... Unfortunatley Angie is now off work sick and so if she isnt back in time there goes my days off!!!

I know it's not really important and it's ONLY a night out but right now I feel really miserable about it... and THAT makes me feel like a right selfish bitch cause my friend is poorly and I'm more bothered that I dont get a night out... Of course it doesnt help that if I cant go it means letting Charlie down (cause it's only the two of us going) and we'll still have to pay for the hotel cause it was a non-refundable booking...

I think a big part of feeling so upset about it is more that things have been really miserable lately and it was good to have something to look forward to and a night where I can just try and forget how utterly crap I've been feeling recently... right now I just want to curl up on my bed and cry - and I know how utterly pathetic that sounds

Ahh well - self pitying moaning over... On the bright side... oh hang on - I'll have to get back to you on that... there doesnt seem to be any bright side at the moment... anyone think of one??? :(

*Edit* Four hours later... yes I know all that was very woe is me... I was feeling sorry for myself OK!!!
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I'm feeling:: crushed
 
 
dawneh
27 February 2009 @ 04:09 pm
 
*yawn* Oh so tired..... Three nights of bad sleep and I'm knackered!!!

Gah dont mother's drive you mad sometimes... recently my mum was talking about ages - it was my brother's birthday - and she says "Oh you'll be 38 this year wont you.... 38 and still not married."

Yeah thanks mum... cause I really needed THAT reminder... still we'd both better get used to the idea... not like it's ever gonna change now!!!
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I'm feeling:: exhausted
 
 
dawneh
22 February 2009 @ 05:40 pm
 
Ahh I want a new layout... I'm bored of this one... I wish I knew how to actually "make" them rather than just change the header... Suppose I could try and find out... dont expect I ever will though :)

Anyone fancy making me one??? No?? Thought not!!!

Oh well - maybe I'll play around with it one day!


Ahhh I finished rewatching Black Books today - I really do love that show so much... It actually changed a lot of things for me... it was where my love of slash came from, my love of fanfic, it was when I first started getting into t'internet... how different things might be if I hadnt found that show!!!

Why does the weekend go by so fast???
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I'm feeling:: peaceful
 
 
dawneh
24 January 2009 @ 02:44 pm
 
I bought new boots today... happy days!!!

Yes OK new boots arent the most amazing thing in the world but the fact that I have managed to find a second pair that a) fit, b) I like and c) arent leather, is quite an achievement... I have always struggled to get boots that fit cause, I am sorry to say, I've got rather fat ankles (well legs too!!), which makes finding boots that arent too tight a miracle...

So yes, that's my news... new boots... I considered taking a photo of them but decided that was probably a bit much :)
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I'm feeling:: content
 
 
dawneh
12 January 2009 @ 10:30 pm
 
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I'm feeling:: confused
 
 
dawneh
10 January 2009 @ 10:47 am
 
I woke up with these lyrics in my head today!!

Sometimes we don't know what we're waiting for
That's the time to be the first one on the dance floor
We go from green to blue to go to black
Breathe deep, who knows how long will this last.


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I'm feeling:: pessimistic
 
 
dawneh
05 January 2009 @ 07:02 pm
 
So that's the first day of jury duty done then... and apart from the getting up early... going out in the cold, frosty dark... getting home in the cold frosty dark... and the sitting around for hours doing nothing it wasnt too bad!!

I did get called onto one case but they advised it could run for up to 6 weeks and you had the opportunity to tell the judge if that would be a problem... plenty of people did - and I just said it would cause difficulty at work and I was excused... which now means I get to go back tomorrow and see if I get chosen for another one...

The chips were nice though!!!
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I'm feeling:: tired
 
 
dawneh
31 December 2008 @ 12:31 pm
 
And so 2008 slowly draws to a close... it really seems to have gone by in a flash but that could just be old age talking!!!

It's been a year of ups and downs - well anyone who's followed my ramblings over the year will know that - and I guess that's normal... does anyone have a totally good or totally bad year - I would expect not...

The year brought me some friendships that I would never have anticipated or expected so I suppose I end this year feeling less alone and more loved and regardless of anything else I would say that's got to be a good thing hasnt it?

It also saw the final ending to McDean - which I am still torn over - moments I loved and moments I hated... it was certainly not the way I had dreamed it but I'm still glad that Oaks decided those boys deserved to be together and didnt tear them apart in the usual soap style!!!

I feel like my writing for McDean is also drawing to an end... I only have one active fic on the go now and I dont know if there will be more - there ARE more in my head but there's a chance they might just stay there!! We'll see...

So I hope you all enjoy your New Year's Eve - however you choose to celebrate it and that 2009 is a good one for us all... ♥
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I'm feeling:: thoughtful
I'm listening to:: Chesney Hawkes - The One and Only... dont ask ;)
 
 
dawneh
28 December 2008 @ 03:57 pm
 


No one can... )
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I'm feeling:: scared
 
 
dawneh
23 December 2008 @ 05:19 pm
 
And so the christmas break begins... thankfully!!

I think this is possibly the most exhausted I have ever felt... physically, mentally, emotionally... I am drained beyond reason. Right now I would like to do nothing more than crawl into bed and never get out again... not only could I finally get some sleep but I could also hide away and not have to face life... oh yes that sounds good to me!!!

Cut for emo rant!! )
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I'm feeling:: distressed
 
 
dawneh
23 December 2008 @ 01:44 pm
 
WTF??? I thought this man was supposed to uphold principles of love and compassion... Crazy!!!

Well if I thought I was tired yesterday adding on another sleepless night has made it almost unbareable... in fact I cant even type right - I'm having to correct even the simplest spellings here...

Thankfully I get to have a long lie in tomorrow... possibly for the whole day...

*t'sigh* When did life get to be such a mess... :(
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I'm feeling:: depressed
 
 
dawneh
22 December 2008 @ 08:20 pm
 
So tired... I had one of those nights where sleep seems to be something unobtainable... I hate that lying in the dark staring at the ceiling - just wishing for rest and it not coming... although naturally once sleep DOES finally arrive it seems only minutes before the alarm goes off and it's time for a new day...

But at least there's only one more day of work to go... and then freedom - well till we have to go back in on 29th & 30th GAH!!!

*tis the season to be... blah blah blah...*

I just dont GET Christmas... how does anyone get excited about it... I feel like I'm missing out but it just doesnt do anything for me... I dont remember ever finding christmas as anything good... not even as a kid - I dont remember believing in Father Christmas or anything like that... Oh well...

I hope the people who like this time of the year are enjoying it ♥
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I'm feeling:: exhausted
 
 
dawneh
16 December 2008 @ 05:31 pm
 
Well in a weeks time I will have finished work for Christmas... is it wrong that the ONLY joy I really get out of Christmas IS the time off work??

This year the stupid idiots known as the bosses have decided that we're opening up on 29th and 30th - which we've never done before... although I do still rather hope that most of us will be give the option to opt out and take the days off without pay - yes please - should find out soon enough!!

This year really seems to have flown by though... it's quite amazing really...

I had an urge to see what I'd posted this day last year: http://dawn-e-h.livejournal.com/2007/12/16/ WOW - remember the days when I could produce TWO fic updates in one day... now I struggle to do one in a week... ahh well!!!

Life feels pretty up and down these days - as does my moods... I feel icky - but not in an unwell well... not sure if that makes sense... my skin feels all bleh and yuk... I think I might have overdosed on chocolates already!!!
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I'm feeling:: bleh
 
 
dawneh
08 December 2008 @ 10:18 pm
 
Ahh this song came into my head and was haunting me... it took ages to find the version that I remember hearing in my childhood... I really was born in the wrong era you know!!



If your heartaches seem to hang around too long
And your blues oh they keep getting bluer with each song
Remember sunshine can be found behind the cloudy sky
So let your head down and go on and cry
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I'm feeling:: lonely
 
 
dawneh
08 December 2008 @ 05:19 pm
 
Urgh at today... Cold, dark, overcast, wet, gloomy, miserable...

Seemed appropriate though... rather matched my mood!!



So far I have opened christmas presents off three people... I AM a bad girl!! But hey - I have to check if they're chocolates cause if I get too many I wont have them eaten in time for the January choccy-free month!!

Today (or tomorrow depending on your timezone) would be the anniversary of John Lennon's murder... 28 years ago... quite unbelievable really...
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I'm feeling:: gloomy
 
 
dawneh
25 November 2008 @ 09:00 pm
 
No-one in your life is with you constantly,
No-one is completely on your side,
And though I'd move my world to be with him,
Still the gap between us is too wide,

Looking back,
I could have played it differently,
Learned about the man,
Before I fell
But I was ever so much younger then,
Now at least I know
I know him well


Loving the new John Barrowman CD... ahh that man has a beautiful voice...
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I'm feeling:: discontent